Disclosure: For those of you who know us personally, you will see that I did leave out certain parts of our adoption story. Some parts of our story I feel are not my story to tell.
God’s plan. August 6, 2019 can only be described as God’s plan.
When Jeff & I were dating, we discussed how cool it would be to someday add to our family through adoption. Several years passed… We got married, had two girls of our own, and the adoption talk resurfaced. We prayed on it (lots!). We researched. We made phone calls. We set up meetings. We also had a lot of “life” happen that resulted in cancelled meetings and putting things on hold. This went on for over 10 years. For 10 years we contemplated, started, rethought, and stopped the adoption process.
At one point, we made the decision to not proceed with adoption. We were happy as a family of four and we didn’t want to mess up a good thing. But adoption kept nagging at me. I didn’t tell Jeff. I just prayed on it. I prayed for God to open up his heart. I prayed and prayed for months. Then, out of the blue, Jeff sends me a text that he was too thinking about adoption again.
Summer of 2018, we started the entire process again. We had a meeting scheduled for July and wouldn’t you know it, we had to cancel. I was devastated… I thought this couldn’t possibly be happening again. I confided in a friend and she told me not to get upset… She told me that God had a plan for us and our kid probably wasn’t ready yet. I held onto her words.
My friend, who I just mentioned, was currently a foster mom. What started out as helping out a family friend turned into her actually fostering this friend’s grandchildren. The plan all along was she was going to be fostering while the biological parents were getting their life back on track. The plan was ALWAYS reunification. Until now. It was becoming very clear that it would not be in the best interest of the children to be placed back with the biological parents.
So there we were… God had placed adoption on our hearts for years and while we have tried to shut the door on this idea many times, God continued to swing that door right open again. And now we have kids placed in front of us who will very likely need to be adopted.
I’d like to say here, “And the rest is history.” but as I am sure most of you know, it wasn’t quite that simple. There were many court dates, weekend visits, meetings, etc., but on January 25, 2019, we moved the boys into our home permanently. By law, they had to reside with us for 6 months before we could finalize our adoption.
Which brings us to August 6, 2019 when we made Cash & Gage officially Cowens!
The picture below I can only describe as “Love.” My parents, Jeff’s parent’s, and the boys biological grandparents… All there to support them on their big day! This make my heart so happy!
I really don’t think I can put into words how in awe I am of God’s work. He knew his plan for us all along. He knew it wasn’t time when we thought it was. He knew not to shut the door when we tried. He knew to have our hearts open when our kids were ready to come home. His plan is ALWAYS better.
I pray that if God has ever placed adoption on your heart, to please look into it. I am so in love with my little family!